i agree with bluebootyraider that you seem to put a lot of pressure on yourself to stay in the fandom, but i also notice that you seem to put specific pressure on yourself to engage with the current fandom and how you feel at odds with the fact that a lot of fans engage with/talk about the epilogues and HSBC, even though you don’t like them. i get that there can be a feeling that you’re being “left behind” by not finding post canon stuff engaging, but honestly, i think it’s perfectly fine to just, not engage with that?

you say that the current fandom is majorly focused on epilogues/HSBC but i honestly don’t find that to be fully true? obviously people talk about it and accept it as a continuation of these characters’ stories, but there’s plenty of people who dislike post canon stuff, or even without that, engage with homestuck proper still. most fanart i see is really not about post canon stuff, or only acknowledge it in the abstract. there’s plenty of people still doing analysis of homestuck proper. there’s plenty of people still writing their own versions of what happens post canon, hell, there’s even plenty of rewrites of the homestuck ending itself.

if it upsets you to see post canon stuff, i honestly recommend minimizing your engagement with that.

a lot of people said or alluded to stuff along the lines of it being helpful to engage with homestuck more analytically/academically to regain your love for the work, and in that sense there’s a LOT to discuss and think about in homestuck proper, without touching any post-canon. i understand the fact that stuff that comes out even outside the proper work (the paratext, so to speak) can spoil some of your engagement with the original, but i also think that trying to engage with the story analytically also helps distance yourself from those feelings: it helps to see the post canon stuff as yet another attempt to deconstruct/analyze these characters, rather than a definitive, singular conclusion to their character arcs.