Fitting into a community does "just happen". It happened to me before, I live with the belief and the hope it will happen for me once again, even if I have to do legwork to make it so. I aspire to be optimistic and choose hope over wallowing in despair.

My end goal, as stated with the many replies so far, is to find someone who can provide me some kind of deeper understanding that might help me get over these issues I have with the state of things, or elucidate ways in which I am mistaken and clear my mind. I choose to believe that there is someone out there, with that knowledge or piece of information that I've been missing, that will allow me to feel connected again, excited even.

I've already made some degree of progress with a lot of these responses, at least with regards to inwards introspection, it's been very eye opening to be able to talk here and pinpoint where my loss and confusion and sadness lies.

As for why I don't make a thread aimed at people who mutually dislike something, I don't feel like that would be a good idea. Last time I shared my critique of the story, I found myself faced by a witch hunt on one side, by fans who extremely loved the new content and would not hear ANY critique on the matter and then left only surrounded by people of the Homestuck Reddit/Discord, because my critique was being lumped in with the worst faith actors of those communities, I felt like nothing I had to say on the matter was being given any objective lense and just tarred as "angry Homestuck is progressive", when the crux of my issues has nothing to do with the progressive themes of the story and more to do with the miserable execution and plot holes.

I'm not inclined to do so again, I don't even think this place would be the appropriate space for it; that's another reason I find discussing the content of the post Homestuck story difficult. I don't want to ruffle feathers and I don't want to contribute to more misery.

I want to be in the Homestuck fandom because for the longest time, it was an enjoyable space for me, and integral for a lot of self discovery with regard to my own identity, and it's where I had some of my most long standing friendships. I use to produce a lot of art and fanfic for the community and felt very driven and inspired by those around me, but since the Epilogues onwards, I've felt hollow. And yes, that's in part to the Fandom shrinking in such a dramatic degree and a lot of my own friends abandoning ship, but it's also just because of my own issues with everything going forth. But I refuse to believe that my time spent in it should all be meaningless or thrown to the wind because of a weird turn.

I just want to see the end. I want the finality that the Epilogues should have been. I feel like I need closure. So, for better of for worse, I am here. Without anybody by my side to really talk to or engage with.

I miss the joy and I want it back; and I have to hope in my heart that there is someone out there who will find me and tell me that thing I haven't considered and it'll all become okay again. My only other choice is to grit my teeth and knuckle down until the conclusion. So, rather than doing nothing, I'm looking for that someone or something.