People online and in real life think im neurodivergent. So here r things ppl pointed out abt me
- talk about Scott Pilgrim and my OCs way too much all day every day. online and in real life.
- once said i had terrible memory except for the things i like, n immediately i got a reply that was like "thats an adhd symptom"
- when i was a teenager taking Calculus, my teacher emailed my mom saying I was drawing too much in class. and in my college lecture classes i kept doing that. I heard that counts as stimming
- speaking of stimming
- people irl say i do this a lot and it really surprised me because i have not noticed that before. but i guess that makes sense. i twirl my hair, pick at my nails. chew on my lip, fidget with the broken buttons of my car keys. My leg shakes and bounces a lot
- someone said my "mannerisms" made them think i was "one of us" ("us" being autistic (?))
- i have an odd way of speaking (person didnt elaborate (??????))
- someone else said they thought i was autistic because when i first met them i "didnt make eye contact," but this one doesnt count because I was like "no i just look away from people when im upset because i ugly cry." i can look at people's faces just fine otherwise. i dont think im autistic.
- i was an All-A's student all throughout school, but despite that, studying was a challenge. I never understood "taking notes" and for some reason the cornell notes format was hard to grasp when i first heard abt it
- focusing is really hard. i get distracted easily
- my mom's convinced im lazy yet "so smart" and if i just put in a little more effort i could be a mega genius. i dont know how to explain that i think i peaked here cus "i cant focus." my mom's advice was "just focus more"
- i hyperfixate on music. i end up staying up past midnight cus i tell myself "just one more song. just one more song. just one more song and i will shower and go to sleep. just one more so-"
- my family is convinced im deaf or ignoring them. I swear im not. i swear. I hear them speaking but i cant process the words for some reason. how can i be ignoring yall if im constantly asking for clarification?
- maternal aunt has adhd and before my aunt was diagnosed, my mom always compared me to her and said we were so similar (genetic?)
