@maydazed

my advice is going to come in the form of a little story

so, I mentioned in the original post that I've been on estrogen since I was 15. at the time, I honestly thought I was completely fucked, I was convinced that I'd ruined my life because I waited a few years into puberty to come out to my parents. not only is it kind of embarrassing in retrospect because I actually started really young, but also I've met a lot of people who started way later in life who look absolutely incredible! there's genuinely no point in life where you're too late to start being yourself, and while it's incredibly frustrating dealing with roadblocks, I can assure you that you will eventually be on the other end of it all!

my advice in the meantime is to do all that you can. even if it seems stupid, any little thing that makes you feel more comfortable and more you is worth doing. I only started wearing skirts around the house earlier this year, I always saw it as Not Worth It because I wasn't going anywhere, but it's been really nice! there's a lot of tiny things you can do to make things easier, and all of it is worth doing imo

it's important to remember that despite how the world can make it seem, you've got a whole life ahead of you. it will most certainly be hard throughout, but there is always love to be found that can make it easier. don't give up!