i have super mega dissociation issues so my BASE ASSUMPTION is that im perceiving things a little funkier than they really are! i tried lexapro for anxiety a while ago and stopped because it was causing me minor hallucinations. that was a crazy time. i heard ralsei's voice coming out of my dishwasher. the pikmin on my lock screen blinked at me. i already deal with a hazy, foggy view of the world so that had to stop LOLL. im off it now and im just dealing with my normal dissociation HAHA. the anxiety causes the dissociation, though, so my hope is that if i find a medication that works it will make the fog go away and i can just be present in the world as it is, and not so much forced to be in my own brain worlds all the time. often i cannot tell the difference between them, or between a dream and a real day, so it's kinda sucky. you get used to it, though.

top ten most delicious lunches
- leftovers from the previous nights dinner
- homecooked meal by a loved one
- kraft mac n cheese
- big outing with friends out at a restaurant where youre being a bit too loud but its okay cuz youre having fun
- doordashed garbage food because dammit i need a treat
- pizza
- pizza
- burger
- burger
- BLT made by my girlfriend